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Posts tagged with John Mayer.

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I’m jaded
I hate it

I’m tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here

-Love Song for No one

Story of my life these days. I don’t know if any song has ever perfectly portrayed a place in my life such as this. Goodness John Mayer, you never cease to deliver. This is the only concert DVD I own. Has always been and will always be, my favorite.

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1 year ago 2

"I fell in love with the dream I built of you."

Man on the Side, John Mayer.

1 year ago 2

I seriously don’t know what it is with me lately. Maybe it’s because it’s the first time I have been completely horrifyingly single in 3 years. Like so single, I don’t have to turn my phone off at night because no text or call will wake me up. No prospects, nothing in the works, nothing at all.
For the most part, I really am okay with it. Because at this point I actually feel as though I have nothing to offer anyone. Either I have upped my expectations of myself for what I should bring to the table, or I am just not whole from my relationship and dating experiences as of late.
Not only do I have so many expectations of myself, but I have even more for the lucky guy who gets to date me next. I say that soaked with sarcasm because I really almost feel bad for him. He has a LOT to do. I’m assuming I’m being completely unrealistic in my hopes for this next person, so much so that perhaps it is acting as a wall of defense so as to give no one a chance. That way, I don’t have to deal with it. Worry about it. Think about it. I can just be, as JM says so well, “perfectly lonely.”

Nothing to do, No where to be
A simple little kind of free
Nothing to do, No one to be
Is it really hard to see,
Why I’m perfectly lonely?
‘Cus I don’t belong to anyone
Nobody belongs to me

But considering that goes against all that a human is, to be alone in this world, I don’t know how long this “being okay with it” is going to last. But what I do know is that even when I’m not okay with it anymore, I won’t be settling for just anything. What worries me is that I have a tendency to go a very long time between relationships. Going by previous evidence…it’ll be a couple years before I date someone long-term again. That’s a long time. Way long. Super long. TOO long. I’m hoping that the reason for these previous long gaps is due to the lack of maturity in the opposite sex of my cohort at the time. Being a little older now, I’m hoping that more people are where I’m at in terms of commitment and really looking for their person.
I guess this anti-social thing is just magnified by taking this break from Facebook for thirty days. Now, I can’t even be social in that context. This is probably exactly what I need; time for self-reflection and to actually get out of the Facebook bubble and black hole so I guess all this confusion is a good thing. Because I know I’ll figure it out someday soon and that fresh perspective and clear outlook will be nice.
Any day now.

1 year ago

This, without a doubt, will ALWAYS BE his best song. Not to mention, he adds a verse to this version that I’m in love with.

In technicality, you will always be ahead of me.

Why’d I have to practice on you?

Why’d I have to practice, on your heart?

Love JM.

1 year ago 2

‘Cus I’d die if I saw you-

I’d die if I didn’t see you there

The man can do no wrong.

1 year ago 1

‘Cus everything you’ll ever be,

you already are to me.

Forgive me. Because I will be giving up Facebook, I will be transferring all my go-to links/videos to my blog. In one convenient little place, so that I can play them back as I do pretty much every night lately.

1 year ago

Please? →

Sometimes I get the itch to go out for a drink thinking I might miss meeting the woman of my dreams, but then I realize the woman of my dreams isn’t at a bar at 12:36 on a Wednesday morning. No, the woman of my dreams is asleep in bed with her lame boyfriend she’s only now beginning to see is…

The more I learn, the more I fall in like (No, not love. That would be…creepy). Currently seeking a John Mayer double for my personal life enjoyment. If anyone knows of said person’s existence, please advise.

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